Quote from Rachel Hauck's blog this week "As for my legacy, how can I really say? To be known in heaven more than I'm known on earth?
I thought of a hundred things but this is what I want my legacy to be: that some day people will say, "I met a woman once. I don't remember her name or even what she looks like, she might have been a writer, but every time I was around her, I could see Jesus. I wanted to be more like Him. I knew He loved me."Rachel Hauck
Sabrina here: I think sometimes it's easy for an artistic person to lose themselves in their art form and to forget why it is they have the passion for their craft. Or what brought them to that craft in the first place. I know I've had that problem lately. You know I'm not one of these writers that will say "I write because I have to" Or "It's like breathing to me--I have to do it" No I write simply because I enjoy it. I truly do. I enjoy stretching my mind and learning new things. I enjoy feeling like I'm not becoming stale and lethargic mentally. I like creating a written piece and having people be pleased with it. Whether that's wrong or not, that's how I'm made. LOL.
Anyway, I've been thinking lately about why I write Christian fiction as opposed to secular when everyone says there's better money in the ABA. But it's simple really, I write Christian fiction because I ultimately want to please God. I want to create something that my Father in heaven finds pleasure in. Just like we love when our earthly parents say "Wow, I'm so proud of you." I crave that same glorious response from Him. So lately as I write these books and my articles I've realized, I haven't implemented that into my work as much as I did at first. I haven't sat down and said, "Okay, how will this bring glory to Christ or how will this lead someone to God?" I haven't done that and I have to wonder if that's why I'm having such a hard time lately.
I think I haven't felt like writing because I'm not impressed with the end result. Sigh. It makes me sad that I'm going through this spiritual drought, so to speak, but it happens. I hear it all the time with other writer friends. And even non-writers...we as Christians all go through it. We have moments when our faith and our ministry is the most important thing in our life and we're passionate about it. Then we go through tough times or challenging circumstances and we fizzle out. But see I don't want to fizzle out. I want to continue to be on fire for Christ. I want to love the Lord so much that when people are around me they wonder if I'm some kind of freak. LOL. I want my passion back.
Can you tell I've had a setback lately? I sound all deep and depressing. LOL. But really, I'm going through a tough time and I've decided I'm done with it. I'm committing to change. Both in my personal life and my writing life. I'm going to reevaluate my projects and focus on the spiritual thread more. I'll let you know how it goes and maybe when I'm through this little desert I'm traveling through, I'll share some of what's been going on. For now I just needed to make myself accountable to some of my writing friends.
On a similar thread, one of the reasons for this post is because I frequent Rachel Hauck's Blog, not just because as a writer she rocks, LOL, but mainly because I never know what Rachel will have posted. One day she'll make me laugh and the next she will make me cry feeling convicted with some spiritual truth or biblical principal she's written about. This week I was particularly moved by the quote at the beginning of this post and I thought, "That's where I want to be Lord--I want people to see Jesus in me...in my writing, to feel Your love through me and my written words."